Darker Than Midnight

All I ever do now is laugh

Since you've been gone,

 But this laughter is clearly a facade,

Because I'm not nearly ok

When you're not near me,

I'm kneeling, praying for peace,

"Do you hear me Father?",

My greatest blessing's gone

And i find no respite in these other ones,

Because waking up to see the sun just ain't as beautiful

When the light isn't dancing in your eyes,

And the stars and the moon never grace my sky,

This is the blackest night I've ever seen.

Stuck

Sometimes I feel like I would have been better off just fuckin you,

Because then I wouldn't be losing my mind trying to get in touch with you,

Or fell in love with you,

Maybe I should have just never fucked with you,

I'm pulling out my fuckin hair,

Popping these pills with reckless abandon,

Just grabbing bottles at random

And chasing em down with glasses of Crown Royal,

I shouldn't have ever been thinking of ways to spoil you,

And the only wars I fought with you should have been in the bedroom,

Sometimes I feel like I would have been better off with a quiet one,

Because everybody knows you,

Or at least they want to ,

And everybody wants you,

Your popularity haunts our home like a demon,

So when ever we in the sheets,

Whether we're freaking, eating, or sleeping,

Your phone is ringing,

And I wonder WHO THE FUCK is calling you?

But I ignore it as I often do,

But I can't help but think that I should have never talked to you,

So I come to talk to you and cut if off with you,

And then you smile at me...

Eternal Star

I respect everything that you are,

And I accept everything that you aren't,

I'm intrigued by who you will become,

I love every inch of your body,

I'm enamored with every fiber of your being,

I would love to take the time

To search the recesses of your mind

And take a walk through the chambers of your heart,

And I know that everything here is precious,

So if you should open up and let me in,

I promise to take care,

If I should break your heart for whatever reason,

I swear to pick up all the pieces,

And work tirelessly to find a way

To put it all back together,

For you are,

My forever love,

My greatest desire,

My passion on fire,

My immortal,

My eternal star. 

City Lights

If I were to have a wish

It would be you and me for eternity,

But the city lights have dimmed the stars

so I have nothing to wish upon,

And it feels like I have to hike a thousand miles

Just to find some clarity in the night sky,

It's like I've fallen into a state of perpetual longing for you, 

Waiting for the days when FaceTime

Becomes face to face time

Again, waiting for the end of "just friends",

As we pretend to be all out of love,

And could it be we've reached this place

Because we never went all out in love, 

That we're trying now to fall out of love,

Even in my dreams I call out your name, 

My friends call me crazy,

But I'd prefer to go insane

Than to go without my lady,

Maybe we should start over,

Because we've tried to talk it over,

But situations were often overblown,

And then it all was over,

Where do we go to find the love we had before,

Or where was it lost,

Or was it hidden, 

Or was it written in the stars

That got lost in the city lights

That we were meant to be apart?

Fall for Me

A piece from my new book, The Fall and Rise of a Black Man in Love, releasing April 28th. Enjoy!

If it means that I can be the only one, Then you should fall,
Fall without fear of disappointment, Fall without reservation,
Fall in the summer
Without a wonder
If I'll be there for the fall,
See I just want it all from you,
But you're afraid to give it up,
Because you remember when you used to
Fall for those other guys,
Fall for their lies and deceit,
Fall for the look in their eyes
When they told you it was real,
I promise I know how you feel
Because falling has such a negative connotation, As you're sent on a descent toward the pavement You fear that no one will catch you
And that you'll feel the pain of rock bottom,
But if you just
Fall for me,
I've got you covered,
I'll love you 365 and 366 in a leap year
If you take that leap of faith,
And leap into my arms,
Because if you give me your all

I will give you the world,
So like the rain in the summer sky 
Would you fall for me,
Like the river cascading off of a cliff 
Would you fall for me,
Like a magician's audience
With ooh's and ah's of amazement 
At just a simple illusion,
Would you
Fall for me? 

Beyond Swag

Disclaimer: This is not a real poem. Just a writing exercise based on a random word given to me by a random follower which happened to be 'swag'. Enjoy.

I never had swag,

Just the gait and the traits of a great,

My fate’s been replaced

Or maybe it’s just mutated,

Because young and black in America

Life’s supposed to be terrible,

But I’m just terribly terrorizing the status quo,

No swagger though

I got the women you turned up your whole swagger fo’,

I only deal with ladies

Chris Paul, I’m quick to pass on hoes,

Looking good as hell

And as a plus, I do it with no swagger so

The look dumb and stupid when they try to swagger jack him Oh,

M-G, It’s D. Glasper,

Mr. Fantastic,

Mr. ‘if you don’t like me you can kiss my damn ass’,

Man I know this poem’s less a poem, more a damn rap,

But damn that,

I write what I feel, I’ll type it and seal it up

And mail it in an envelope full of anthrax,

So close your mouth before it gets jampacked with tampax,

Damn that’s nasty, they ask how I do it

Then they try to jack my swag , they foolish.

#NoMoreSwag

For The Freaks Pt. 7 (Equal Adversaries)

It’s been a week and she thinks it’s been forever,

She’s been a freak but I think I made her better,

I call her up and when she sees my name on that cell,

She’s down for whatever, Whenever, Wherever,

Maxwell,

She says she can quit it when she wants,

But that isn’t what she wants at all,

She loves it, she won’t ever let it go because she wants it all,

She knows that thing is mine like I trademarked it,

Sometimes it ain’t the product it’s all about how you market it,

And when it comes to marketing, I’m Steve Jobs,

As I bite the apple,

She’s still tryin to fight the battle,

Trying to deny it’s mine, she’ll never get it back,

Because when I touch her it’s like when the elements attack,

I ignite her fire, get her drenched, and make her earthquake,

All after she gets her windy day on,

Sexual sessions too interesting, wondering where the day’s gone,

I was supposed to chill with my homies but I stayed home,

Because she got me, just like I own her,

Ecstasy is whenever I’m on her,

She doesn’t know she’s my drug, but I know that I’m her cocaine,

But it kills me the way she takes me to Nirvana, Kurt Cobain,

Every stroke is pure gold,

Like the Tiger Woods of old,

If I’m gone for a day it feels like a month on the road,

Spent an hour just thinking of how she rode

And everybody knows, but nobody really knows,

And she’s a real know-it-all, she graduated Rhodes,

Good brains sometimes are better than a beautiful mind,

And as she runs manicured cuticles down my spine,

While I go in it to R. Kelly’s Bump N’ Grind

It still feels like a very first time,

The climaxes still lead to spine scratching,

Shoulder biting, so exciting,

Whether it takes all night

Or I quick strike it like a bolt of lightning,

I always feel her body tighten,

And see her eyes widen,

Now she just lets it all go she doesn’t try to fight it,

Now she can’t even hold her composure as she tries to ride it,

She tells me to get behind it,

And as I get it inside it feeling like I boss it,

She throws it back at me and I’m reminded.